Friday, September 22, 2006

Hollywoodland


We were at Disneyland last year with our friend Jude. We watched the parade, a collection of bright parade floats peopled with plastered smiles and gaudy puffy dresses. To a loud collage of tunes they twirled as if dancing a waltz. It was a pastiche of every Disney movie, and the crowd loved it.

Jude pointed to one of the decked out girls on a float. "I recognise her," she said. "She was in the play I saw this week. It was awful."

I was struck by the thought of this girl, acting in an (apparently awful) play one day, and waving stiffly with a pasted-on smile to a crowd at Disneyland the next. The dance between paying the bills and dedicating oneself to a craft (acting in this case), was never clearer.

I can't pretend profound insight, but I've spent enough time on stage and been around enough professional actors (and wished I were in their shoes) to have a little understanding of what drives people to do it.

My father says that every actor and entertainer desires the maximum success, the most fame, the biggest audience, no matter what they claim. I think they have a particular audience in mind, not simply the largest imaginable. For some it's their peers, some wish for respect within the profession, others wish to be seen by the cool kids, the intellectuals, the people next door, their parents. Mostly, however, I think the impulse is to work and make a living, forced to take jobs like, well, waving and dancing on a parade float in costume, and hope that the audience is going to be there as you go along.

My point is - if success and a mass audience is the main thing that matters to a performer, then most actors who had achieved fame and mass appeal would be fulfilled and satisfied with their careers and their lives, right? Clearly this isn't the case - it doesn't take a genius to see that the majority of successful actors have profoundly ambivalent relationships with their fame and fortune. Very few have any kind of control over the path they take, just ask the actors from any of the Star Trek series' of the past forty years. The ones who seem happiest in the end embrace their fate, accept the fame and fortune it's brought them, at the expense of the choices to work and larger respectability they would have liked. Leonard Nimoy, Mr Spock, wrote the book "I Am Not Spock" in 1975, only to follow it with "I AM Spock" twenty years later.

So, then, to George Reeves, reluctant Superman actor, probable suicide victim, and subject of the film Hollywoodland.

The film is not a biography, and I know little more about him than what is shown in this film, in a superb portrayal by Ben Affleck. He was famous, beloved by a huge number of people, mostly under the age of ten. He was Superman. But that wasn't the audience he wanted, he wanted respect from other actors and an adult audience. He struggled with accepting his fame as Superman, his desire for respect, and the simple need to work, to the point that it got the better of him, and, according to the official account, he killed himself.

The film jumps between two stories, that of Affleck's Reeves, and of private investigator Louis Simo (played by Adrien Brody) who doggedly pursues the feeling that the official story of Reeve's suicide doesn't make sense, and his own web of personal and professional compromises.


The ambiance of 1950s Los Angeles is beautifully portrayed through the photography, the sets and the actors. I was particularly taken with the score, which evoked the period without using falling into clichés or copying classics like Jerry Goldsmith's Chinatown. Aside from Affleck, the actress who jumped out at me was the character of Kit Holliday, Simo's co-worker and girlfriend, played by Caroline Dhavernas. It was a small role but she played it so effortlessly, I couldn't take my eyes off of her.

The flaw with the movie is that Simo's story isn't as interesting or thematically rich as Reeves's, the two linked only superficially, so that the whole film suffers when it spends as much time following Simo as Reeves. When Affleck is on screen, however, he's captivating, you feel the accumulated weight (literally) of his decisions, the compromises that have trapped him into a life he didn't want but can't pretend are anyone else's fault but his own.

Could he have accepted his good fortune, such as it was, even if it meant wearing large red underpants to work - outside his trousers? Could any of us?

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Thursday, September 14, 2006

The Costco Incident

I am not Picard

When I go to Costco I like to browse the DVDs on the off chance that there's a bargain lurking there. Imagine my delight, then, when I saw several seasons of Star Trek: The Next Generation (TNG) and Star Trek: Deep Space Nine (DS9) at rock bottom prices. Then I saw a sticker on the boxes, which read
Buy a season of
Star Trek: The Next Generation
OR Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Seasons 1-4
PLUS a season of Star Trek: The Next Generation
OR Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Seasons 5-7 AND
RECEIVE $18 OFF at the register
This was sounding better and better. I parsed the offer as best as I could, and at first chose TNG seasons 5 and 7 AND DS9 seasons 6 and 7. Hmm. Too many, don't want to be greedy. Changed my mind a few times. Then figured I could get season 7 of TNG and season 7 of DS9, and that'd qualify for the $18 off, right? (still with me?)

A few minutes and a giant bag of frozen chicken later, I was at the register. The teller eyed my purchases. "What's your favourite Trek?" This was no casual question.

"I have a thing for Classic Trek", I said, "because that's the one I grew up with."

He wasn't impressed. "Too corny for my tastes", he said.

He rang them up, no discount appeared. I pointed out the sticker, he read it slowly, and looked at my selection. He agreed with my reading of the offer, and called over the supervisor. We consulted, voices were raised, she spat at me, we pulled out our batleths, and fought a Klingon battle at the registers over who was right. Haha, I crack myself up. Anyway, the line behind me grew, the people shifting around and mumbling. I didn't care, this was Star Trek we were talking about. Picard would've brought the races together, talked it out, made tea and convinced everyone to make it so. Kirk would've taken the supervisor into the storage room, showed her some of that thing we humans call love, and she'd given him the DVDs for free.

But I am not Picard. Or Kirk.

The way the offer should have read is "buy one of (TNG or DS9) season 1-4 and one of (TNG or DS9) seasons 5-7", meaning you need to buy from TNG season 1-4 or DS9 season 1-4 and then TNG season 5-7 or DS9 season 5-7 for the offer to work. I didn't get the $18 break and I left behind the DS9 set. How confusing is that?

Still, it was all worth it to get the DVDs home in order to hear Worf intone:
If you were not an ambassador, I would disembowel you right here!

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Back To Work special

Today was my first day of work at Lucasfilm.

What's that? Didn't I write a long piece about how I was taking a break from work to explore other options? I'm back at ILM? Surely I'm having to back pedal on my convictions?

Let me explain...

A couple of months ago I got a phone call asking me if I'd be interested in a project based up at Skywalker Ranch, not with ILM but at a different division of Lucasfilm. It was job that would afford even closer access to George Lucas than I had had working on Episode III.

My first thought was to say 'no'. I wasn't ready to plunge back to fulltime work, not within the web of Lucas companies. I had other priorities, other things I was pursuing, other dreams.

Then again... it was interesting. It would be at the Ranch, a place I had visited and wondered what it would be like to work in that idyllic environment day-by-day. It would be with a small group of other ex-ILM colleagues I knew and trusted, a short term freelance-type position and possibly on terms more agreeable to me. It would not be plunging back into the working-all-hours-and-weekends situation that has burnt me out.

Long story short, I started today.

We hashed out a deal so that I'd still have time to dedicate to the photography projects that have gathered a lot of momentum in these recent weeks. This was never something I had planned, but it was an opportunity that was too good to pass up. Of course there's a part of it that represents a compromise for me between my ideal goals and practical realities, but may all compromises in life be of this order.

It's gorgeous there. This morning the long-horned steer were grazing on the hillside by the grapevines. This evening several deer bounded across my path and disappeared into the brush. Summer still has a hold, and the smell of the tall pines drifts through the valley. I hope to ride my bicycle there several times a week, and hike up on the trails that circle the hills.

My phone's ringing. What's that, George? Coffee, cream, two sugars? Yes I picked up your laundry. Gotta go..!

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